The Grad Goals: How I Want to Live After Graduation


"Sick of being in my head and thinkin' about my fate
And worried about my health.
Wanna waste away my days with a pretty young thing
And blow through all my wealth."
Death of a Strawberry, Dance Gavin Dance

I'm officially entering my finals week tomorrow - my final finals week. No more essays, no more tests, no more mind numbing reading I can't even bring myself to pretend I care about. It feels... surreal? Like, I've been in school all my life and graduating college has always felt abstract. It's all just over after this next week and life becomes real. Like, really real. I have to get a big girl job and find my own big girl place to live and do so many adult things. It's exciting and terrifying and just... wow. BUT, why would I be mature and think about those things now? No, no, no, I'm going to be careless and think about the fun things I want to do with my new freedom. I've had so many plans for what I want to do after graduation, and I'm thrilled that I can finally look to making these plans a reality. These aren't all of them obvi, but it's a little peek!


One
Read

Before college, I was always the girl with a book. I was reading constantly and all I asked for was books. My major in school has been English with an emphasis in creative writing, so you can imagine how much required reading I had. I'ma be real here, I didn't do nearly all the reading I was supposed to, and I still feel like all I did in college was read; and not even works I wanted to read. It turned me off so much that when I finally had free time (AKA procrastinated my brains out), the last thing I wanted to do was more reading. I haven't read a book strictly for leisure in years, and I actually picked up my first book last week! I'm losing myself in American Gods by Neil Gaiman, and my goodness! It is so nice to read a book and not be thinking about the essay I'm going to have to write about it. There is so much delight in having an entire world and scene crafted in your mind. Ugh. I'm so excited to read again and feel bliss.

Two
Get a French Tutor

I started French in my freshman year of high school, and have been on and off with it ever since. I want to speak French desperately, but my practice constantly gets put on the back burner because I have more immediate priorities with school. Welp, school is no longer going to be an issue! I'm totally aware of self study options like Duolingo, Memrise, and Lingvist, but I want to up my commitment by getting someone to hold me accountable. One of my best friends has his degree in French and is a teacher, so I have someone in my life I can casually practice speaking and texting with. I want to do the self study options, and once I have a job and money beyond minimum wage, I'll get my tutor.

Three
Practice Piano

Music is the most foreign of foreign languages to me. You'd think I'd maybe have a small grasp on it since I've dabbled in musical theater and I'm a dancer, but NOPE. I don't hear beats or counts or understand the sounds in the slightest. I want to break this barrier and find a way for me to decipher it. I got our piano tuned and started practicing with an app called Yousician. I was actually making solid af progress, but the autumn semester came around. You can guess when I last practiced piano. I feel like understanding music could only could only enrich my mind, soul, and life.

Four
Get a Vocal Coach

This has been a long time hope for me. I silently got booted out of pursuing theater when I was a young teen because I couldn't sing, and that has always stung me. The ol' I can teach a singer to act, but I can't teach an actor to sing. Meh. I don't have any ambitions of performing in that way anymore, but I've always been insecure about my singing voice. I want to be able to sing with my friends or go to karaoke and not feel stressed out that someone will hear me. I love singing with my windows down when I'm driving along back roads because I generate lots of positive vibes from it, and I want to be able to have than energy anywhere and everywhere.

Five
Learn to Sew

I love fashion. I particularly love skirts and dresses. I want a closet bursting with fashion that sings me, and I feel like the best way to make that happen would be to make it myself. I could choose my cuts, patterns, fabrics, and ugh. Like, bruh. I cannot even begin to tell you how much tulle would be in my closet. It would be so authentically me. I have a friend who cosplays and makes costumes, so I've flagged her down to teach me the ropes of starting to sew.

Six
Be an Artist

As you can tell by my list already, I want to create - in every possible way. I'm about to graduate and there isn't going to be anyone to sit there and tell me to write a poem or flesh out a story. No one is going to tell me to practice piano, sew a dress, crochet a doll, or try my hand at sketching. All of these things are in my hands and it terrifies me. One of my poetry professors stood in front of my class last week and said it's a reality many of us will stop writing when we leave school. I feel like oh no, that's not me - but what if it is? I don't want to be that person that dreams of art and does nothing with it. If I only do one thing after graduation, it's going to be to continue creating, writing poems, and seeing the world in a beautiful way. I don't want to forget my passion in the routine of life.

What do you want to accomplish in the next six months?
Tell me in the comments! 💛


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